Apathy
Nihilism, Mysticism, And Apathy.
I have a problem. Except it’s not really a problem. Not for me. It seems to be a problem for everyone else. You see, as a Nihilist, I have…
APATHY.
I don’t care. At least about a lot of things. A lot of things you seem to want to make me care about. A lot of those things are labels or judgement calls or morals.
Ok, lets get down to brass tacks.
You are gay. Or lesbian. Or trans. That’s great and all. I’m happy for you. But that doesn’t matter to me.
Well, unless your trying to sleep with me. And I won’t since I’m married.
People see these labels as identity. And I can understand that to a point. But it’s just one part of you.
I’m far more interested in the magick you make than who you sleep with.
Now, That being said, someone putting you down for being gay, lesbian, trans, etc, is a good way for someone to be on my shitlist. Because as apathetic as I am about it. I dislike people being put down for any reason. The only reason for putting another down it to feel superior to them.
I don’t care about your politics, your religion, your ideology. If your putting down someone else because of them, you have shit for brains. And so does whatever is driving you to do so.
I am a nihilist because people made me so. Peoples belief in good things makes them do bad things. And that is shit.
If belief in a good “God” makes you burn crosses in people yards. Or lynch people. You suck and so does your deity.
If your politics makes you believe another group is less than you, you suck and so does your political group.
Right now. Pretty much everyone sucks.
Apathy.

When I tell people, nothing really matters. I am nothing and existence is meaningless. They misinterpret apathy as depression or something to be concerned about.
I've accepted that nothing really matters. I am nothing. It's hard to talk with people about this though because it is often misinterpreted as being some sort of "Woe is me" thing.